when the day is rained
Thursday, January 30, 2003 06:33 p.m.
donna???? sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!! her boyfriend too!
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Saturday, August 10, 2002 10:18 a.m.
i don't understand, just why still thinking of her... there's no other thing i can't do to have her back, but it's always came in my mind... shit!
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Friday, August 9, 2002 08:46 a.m.
i had a dream last night! that i met her and hug her... well it's just a dream... it's been five months since she left me, but i still can't get over her. friendship can be ended with love, but can love ended with friendship? i really miss her so much... sigh...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Sunday, August 4, 2002 07:33 p.m.
still miss her, but i hate her.... a lot!
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

almost morning, stiil working on my project... listen to those songs, my tears falling down just like that! i hate her... just why?
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Friday, July 20, 2001 08:44 p.m.
i really don't know what to do.... why i can't get her off from my mind? it's all over.... but why i keep thinking about it... i am lonely and need a friends... where are you guys? i need you all to support me, not to aganist me... can't you all see? open up your eyes
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Thursday, July 18, 2002 06:09 p.m.
why i keep thinking of those thing, as i don't have anything else to think about? my mind goes off again.... i need hug....
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Thursday, July 4, 2002 07:34 p.m.
feel lost, i am sick... my brain screw... those memories... why?
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Wednesday, June 20, 2001 09:08 p.m.
i tought i would stop here, i miss the angel and send a message, as a return the she send an unwise messenger, wich make me keep falling to the deeper hell. it's really screw my brain. and i realize that the most unworthy person is someone who don't have a courage to admit their mistakes. my eyes are opened now, but i can't take my soul back!
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Tuesday, June 18, 2002 10:00 a.m.
i have decided! to stay in my own world, live in my own freezing animation. where i can still remember...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Thursday, June 6, 2002 05:25 p.m.
my cat is dead! but who care anyway!
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Tuesday, May 28, 2002 04:50 p.m.
when she said "i love you!" i would said "i love you more!" cause i never be so sure about that fielings, and i proud about it. but now i must fight aganist that.
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Sunday, May 19, 2002 08:48 p.m.
can't think, my brain are blocked, everytime i go, is only her in my mind! just go away!
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Thursday, May 17, 2001 05:39 p.m.
ada orang lain yang mulai memasuki pikiranku akhir akhir ini, tapi aku masih belum begitu yakin dengan ini, well at least, i almost find a way out from here, and leave all those pain behind, walau mungkin rasanya seperti menghianati perasaanku sendiri...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Wednesday, May 16, 2001 02:51 p.m.
tapi pagi buka lemari baju, nemu baju yang dibelikan na, wah jadi keinget lagi... T_T, untuk beberapa saat terpaksa harus menahan air mata yang mau keluar... sebal kalo gini terus, how could i get out from this hell...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Sunday, May 12, 2002 08:19 a.m.
i don't know what i am thinking! ...i really wish i could get out, but there's something i need to do for the last time!
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Sunday, May 12, 2002 07:34 a.m.
i tried to hangout with my friends yesterday, try to cheer up my self, but then that "guy" came, i feel like want to put my fist on his face... but now he wear glasses, hey i don't put my fist on someone who wear glasses, or maybe it just a reason for running from him, i really want to do it, but i can't! my brain tell me that won't do any good, even my heart screaming, just hit him in the eyes, i don't even know what i am thinking, something that i know that, i shouldn't be there that time. Behind the wall, i light up my cigarette and try to hold my tears from falling, feel stupid, i know my body no longger resist to nicotin, but i can't think anything else... maybe i've already hit that guy, but a friend holding me, thanks "Zi" for being there!, it feel like a nightmare or maybe worst... pretend to smile and laugh while my heart filled with hate. I REALLY HATE THAT GUY
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Saturday, May 11, 2002 12:59 p.m.
bosen curhat melulu! nggak nyelesain masalah... kenapa nggak datengin aja orangnya, bilang untuk mutusin cowoknya dan bareng lagi dengan loe... gampang kan? kalo nggak mau paksa aja, bunuh cowoknya kek, atau apa... masa ide jahat nggak punya sih? jadi cowok jangan lemah gitu dong! tegas sekali kali apa susahnya? ...andai bisa dengan mudahnya seperti itu... sebal! aku nggak tau kenapa dengan otak gue!
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Friday, May 10, 2002 08:55 a.m.
nicotine no longer help...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Saturday, September 30, 2000 01:32 p.m.
...kini ku hanya ingin lupakan semua, mengenangmu menyesakan jiwa, kan ku hapus air mata, hingga kudapat sembuhkan luka... -coklat-
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Thursday, May 9, 2002 10:07 a.m.
aku punya handphone, warnanya kuning, it's my first, kubeli 3 tahun yang lalu, aku bukan orang yang rapi dengan barang barang hingga kini hpku sudah tidak ber-flip, dan antenanya pun patah, tempat batrenya sudah longgar, terkadang mati tiba tiba ketika menulis sms, entah sudah berapa ratus kali aku bongkar, dan WALAU BETAPA MENJENGKELKAN dan MEREPOTKANNYA hpku itu, aku TETAP sayang padanya, sudah beberapa kali berniat untuk membeli yang baru, tapi rasanya sayang karena dia masih bisa berfungsi, aku sangat sayang dengan benda itu dan dia TIDAK AKAN TERGANTIKAN... tapi hari ini dia mati dan tidak mau menyala lagi... T_T
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Wednesday, May 8, 2002 12:15 p.m.
i guess i have to give up, i can't think any other way to have her back, but i don,t want to give up, it doesn't look like me... it's a dead end, and now i have to start killing myself.
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Wednesday, May 8, 2002 10:22 a.m.
i keep thinking about what my friend told me... my brain and my heart are fighting right now... i wish i can get out! no! i wish, i am with her right now, and all of this stories, is never happen...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Wednesday, May 8, 2002 05:40 a.m.
aku mulai berhalusinasi, semua yang kulihat hanya mengingatkanku padanya, those flashbacks... i wish i cant erase them from my head, a friend told me to stoped this "karma thing", it's seem make sense to me... aku ambil dia dari seseorang dan sekarang seseorang mengambilnya dariku, i think i,ve got to stop this... i,ve to start to get my own life back... maybe i have to think... hard...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Monday, May 6, 2002 08:36 a.m.
baru pulang, i miss my computer and my internet connection, kupikir dengan pergi jauh bisa melupakan semua, tapi ternyata perjalanan kali ini hanya mengingatkan lagi pada masa lalu, semua hanya menimbulkan kilasan kilasan masa lalu saat bersamanya, hufff... kadang ingin rasanya untuk jatuh cinta lagi, tapi hati ini rasanya tidak bisa untuk membuka diri bagi yang lain, aku harus berhenti seperti ini....
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Monday, April 29, 2002 04:24 a.m.
masih dikantor... sigh! biasanya larut malam begini handponeku berdering dan seseorang di ujung sana berkata "belum tidur? met bobo ya! luv you!" ...i going to miss that thing...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Monday, April 29, 2002 01:20 a.m.
i could be died, i've got to stop hurting my self, but she's the one that i need, but i would never have her back... just stop complaining, i wish i could! but i can't keep these tears from falling...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Friday, April 27, 2001 01:21 p.m.
"mencintai bukan berarti memiliki..." dan aku tertawa! what about me?, to see her happy and i am stuck in this hell...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Friday, April 26, 2002 08:41 p.m.
bodoh! hari ini aku mulai merokok lagi, sudah tiga batang semenjak siang, tidak bisa berpikir dengan jernih, sekarang dadaku mulai sakit dan susah bernafas, aku tahu itu tidak baik, tapi... ya tidak tahulah... aku tahu aku harus buang jauh benda ini, bodoh!
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Thursday, April 26, 2001 01:57 p.m.
kemarin jalan jalan ke supermarket, sampe dibagian bumbu dapur, di sebuah rak ada berbagai macam bumbu dan rempah rempah, dalam hati berpikir "wah senang ada yang begini, kasih tau dia... " ...dia? dia siapa? dia tidak ada didalam pelukanku lagi, otakku mulai nggak beres, segalanya hanya mengingatkanku pada dirinya, entah sebagaimana kerasnya aku berusaha untuk melupakan semuanya, tapi malah semakin dalam menggores dalam ingatanku, hari ini sepanjang hari mataku basah dan sembab, kucoba untuk menjelaskan pada diriku bahwa itu tidak ada gunanya, sekeras apapun aku menangis, dia tidak akan kembali ke sisiku, sebal...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Thursday, April 25, 2002 06:30 p.m.
hari ini seorang teman berkata "jangan buang buang perasaanmu...." dan aku tidak mendengarkan... rasanya sakit melihat semua itu, kenapa tidak kau bunuh saja dia? dan itu tidak menyelesaikan masalah...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Thursday, April 25, 2002 05:49 a.m.
mimpi buruk itu kembali lagi...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Wednesday, April 24, 2002 08:59 p.m.
i lost a friend for sure, just because of a girl... and i lost the girl too... sigh!
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Monday, April 22, 2002 06:04 p.m.
kupikir bisa dengan berjalannya waktu bisa terlupakan, tapi ternyata.....
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Sunday, April 21, 2002 11:52 p.m.
diriku terbagi dua, logika dan perasaanku, rasanya tak mungkin bila aku tiba tiba datang dan memintanya untuk bersamaku, bagaimana perasaan orang yang sedang bersamanya sekarang, apa bedanya pada saat dia menyakitiku dulu? ketika aku marah karena merasa diterlantarkan, dan dia meninggalkanku, tapi aku juga ingin dia, andai tidak seperti ini kejadiannya, aku cuma butuh sebuah jawaban yang bisa membuatku mengerti , bukannya kata kata "..kayaknya ini nggak bisa diteruskan, nggak ada gunanya...", aku nggak terima itu. aku merasa seperti dikhianati, aku kecewa, tapi aku butuh dia. diriku berkata "sudahlah..." tapi yang satu lagi berkata "tapikan..." dan tampaknya bagian yang tidak bisa menerima yang menang dan menguasai diriku, aku sudah capek ingin berhenti, aku bisa gila karena ini, ya minimal aku bakalan kena sakit liver karena stres kalau terlalu banyak memikirkan masalah ini. sekarang otakku mulai tidak beres karena hanya dia yang terpikirkan.
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Sunday, April 21, 2002 06:35 p.m.
sebal! aku tahu kalo aku nggak boleh egois, tapi aku sendiri bagaimana? sebal karena tidak ada yang bisa berbuat apa apa, kucoba untuk jadi jahat, tapi tidak bisa dengan sepenuh hati...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

Sunday, April 21, 2002 06:44 a.m.
one and half month passed, i still in side this hell... i can't get out...
someone who care... give the kitten a bowl of milk,

few words for the cat...
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